youngchronicpain:

youngchronicpain:

hmmhmmhmm maybe chronically ill and pained people “overdo” it and end up hurting themselves so much because they are starved of the feeling of success. because they are constantly being reminded of all the ways they are failing by the able bodied people around them, so when they succeed at something they want to keep!!! doing!!! more!!!!

and then we do more and guess what??? those same able bodied people praise us for succeeding and doing So Much. And it feels so good. like someone is FINALLY recognizing our efforts. so we push ourselves into a flare to keep that feeling alive, and those people quickly turn from viewing us as Inspirational (ew) to lazy. and we are left to deal with not only the physical pain, but the emotional toll of trying harder than everyone around us and STILL being seen as a slacker.